The Living End ... remixed

There is of course the Berlinale. There is also the Teddy queer film award. I think outside being a star it's kinda stressing to work in the film industry (funny word isn't it ? industry for films). You only see the glamourous side of the scene but at festivals you meet people with black or red eyes obliged to see a quantity of movies that the brain can't take. That's maybe why most of the time they leave the room to write their article thinking they saw the whole thing. I think they don't enjoy anymore but of course at the party tonight they will talk about the movie like never before ! We can't see everything and to get tickets is also a pain in the ass because even if you booked on internet you have to queue hours to get them. I have a german friend who is very organized (and also more available than me) and the program made and booked we went to see yesterday a 1992 film called The living End but the remixed version, meaning that because it was made at the time in 16mm the remastering was welcome. It's "on the shoulder" camera so you have the feeling to be in the middle of the scene. I make it short with the story : a gay is informed one afternoon by his doctor that he is HIV+ (play safe !) and thinks about one thing : death, until an intruder, self destructive, takes him in a road movie where he finds out that home and friends is not that bad afterall. We always have to think that the movie was made in 1992, at a time that Aids was known but not as handled as it is today. The director Gregg Araki explained us at the end of the projection that when the movie came out it was a revolution because nobody showed to public before the way infected people were lost. I don't say it's not the same today but we know even if there is no cure we have more chances to live longer today being HIV+ than 17 years ago where people were dying on the streets and nobody took care of them afraid of being contaminated. So we understand why one of the character is ready to leave what he thinks his last moments intensively doing exactly what he wants at the moment he wants it. But it turns to be chaos. And even if he's saying that he will die soon, frankly said, we will all and maybe before him. Nevertheless it's a beautiful story. Of course under this pressure of having no time they burn every step with love, sex, talk, acts, and that makes us feel the urge. It's nice to see those two youngs who can't live together because their situation is too extreem but they can't live without each other neither. So it's difficult. It's also a nice way of seeing friendship. The young has a strong friendship with a girl and she feels abused and lost because his friend is gone. It makes me think that friendship can also be dangerous. You always think that your friends are there but they can go away as well. In this case you want revenge and you do and say all you can to make them understand they made a mistake. They feel abandonned. The girl in the movie expresses it by ruining her life waiting desperatly that her friend comes back. He should do. But your friends are no possession. What will you better live : friendship or love ? One sentence I liked in the film is when both of them have sex and we feel that it is good and one asks the other : "if you had to choose, what would you die for : sex or love ?" I can't answer. But in french we can say that : dying of love for someone. But it could be another movie ...