If you knew what really would have happened you would have enjoyed more

Whenever I look at children playing together in the train, having fun, making noises, playing around the seats, disturbing the public, of course the first reaction is to be annoyed and to show it to the adults nearby who have responsability. The child can't be wrong. Why ? are we afraid of the reaction of the adult ? are we afraid of the reaction of the child ? we don't want him to cry suddenly and let the other think we're bad (children loooove that game). We don't want him to answer us rudely making us understand we are the fool. The time I make up my decision my mood changes and I prefer to look at them and think that I lost this innocence, this spontaneity that sometimes I should have. When it happens again people around us do not understand. You can suddenly smile mouth opened wide, you can suddenly jump on your feet with a thought, whatever, the others will stare at you and their judgement eye is the strongest because you'll stop immediately. What a shame. But thinking of it closely we never stop being a child. Aren't we excited by the idea that it is nearly our birthday and guess what we'll get ? presents ! Even the idea of buying me sometimes a Kinder Surprise makes me happy (because there is always a surprise inside). Aren't we happy to play with our car on the motorway and do the same games we used to play with our school friends (to stop at the gas station, looking at the engine speaking words of the 5th dimension) ? aren't the girls happy to play with their babies repeating the same as when they played with their girlfriends years before ? Ohh come on if the father approaches the child you suddenly feel the urge to change the pyjama ! look at your work colleague : aren't they happy to report you the last gossip ? or to announce to your supervisor you were late today ? don't they bring everyday some cakes or sweets to play nice ? don't you find some of them spreading some horrible things about you like we used to do at school just because we want your friends too ? I'd rather stay the The little boy in a castle